The sun still shines....

3 1/2 years ago I learned that my partner of 10 years plus was seeing someone else. To say that I was devastated would be a huge understatement. It turned my entire world upside down - and some days it still spins.

you believe that the fault is all yours, that something you did must be the reason, you didn't give enough, you didn't love enough, you weren't enough.... but the reality is it was never about me. At the time a good friend did tell me this but it has taken me this long to understand what she really meant. It was never about me....

I wanted to hide from the world and never come out again, I wanted the world to feel my pain,although truth be known, I wouldn't ever wish that kind of pain on anyone.  I wanted someone to take me aside, wave some magic wand and make it all better - but I didn't know then what better was.

People told me I would be free on my own, that the world would be my oyster, I would be the master of my own destiny, I could do what I wanted when I wanted... and I didn't want any of this. I wanted my life back - all of it, just how it had been. It doesn't happen like that.


Nobody told me how I would cope on my own, endless nights and weekends with my own company, forging a new life, a new way of doing things with and for me. It was daunting to say the least, but I have done  a lot for me over the last 3 years.


I ran away to Perth for a year and I loved being there, I was closer to 2 of my adult children living there, and formed a great friendship with my youngest daughter. She was my salvation, and I really don't know how I would have got through any of this without her. She physically and emotionally supported me when I should have been doing that for her. My eldest has also been there for me when I've wanted to throw in the towel, at the end of the phone or a skype conversation, when I needed her most.

I have learned humility, eaten a very large slice of humble pie, cried, laughed and laughed, and cried some more, I've lost friends and made new ones, and strengthened friendships that have been so so helpful in regaining my life.
Not every day is a perfect day, there are still lots of days when I feel alone, but I am not lonely. There are days when I want cry and change my world, but my world is my world and I'm getting to enjoy it some more.

I'm viewing the world as my oyster, I am learning to love me! I've donned those big girl panties, and I have chosen to live my life with gratitude and thankfulness! Every single day!

today...

you can't sit around and wait for the storm to be over...

you've got to learn how to dance in the rain....

I heart....

so yesterday was Valentine's Day,

I juts love the heart motif, so in honor of Valentine's Day, I decided to share some cool hearts that I found on the internet,

wallpapers.rosegalaxy.com

attic24.typepad.com

http://pinterest.com/pin/260434790923819513/

http://pinterest.com/pin/198651033535468664/

I hope you enjoyed your Valentine's Day whatever you did, and wherever you were...

I just can't help myself!

I am totally addicted to ...

seriously, they need an AA for youtube addicts, I am on it way tooo often. Well mainly first thing in the morning and last thing at night, thanks to my trusty i-pad mini, I can sneak beneath the covers with my earplugs on and watch away 'til the wee small hours, and not annoy Rowing Man in the slightest. Trouble is, it is a little hard getting up in the morning, but when I do, I make a tasty first morning cuppa, and ... you guessed it! Prop up in bed on my fluffy pillows, and watch some more

maybe I need this ....because this has become a habit!!!
I was in Dunedin last week, I had a dentist appointment, lost a filling before Christmas, but had to wait until my dentist came back from holiday - it was a great time to catch up with my Mum and Dad,

and my good friend Sarah

who took me shopping, and I bought this delightful dress...

I am not sure what's with the frown, but I just love this dress!!!

love the fabric, the style (wrap around but the hem is held with a bias to stop the wind grabbing it and doing a Marilyn Monroe), the BIG floppy bow, and the shawl collar....

looks great with my red shoes...
and this is what I have been doing over the last wee while...
oops no photo, maybe next time...

day 14, 2013

well, a very Happy New Year to you all... I wish you all the very best for a wonderful new year ahead...

It has been such a long time since I have been here, ages and ages. I didn't intend to have a blogging break, it just happened that way, and I must admit I have enjoyed some breathing space,

being in Perth for my daughter's birthday, and catching up with all my children pre-Christmas

Christmas with the family at home,

New Years in Twizel, only just managed to stay up to see in the New Year mind...

and boy has the shop been busy! Some rainy days have meant that the days have been filled with shopping and stitching and such

and I even managed to get a few things done in the studio,

and a few customer quilts done in the evenings,

morning walks with Miss Ellie

and I must not forget, Chookyblue's SSCS - this is what Patricia sent to me...

thanks heaps Patricia, I simply love it and have been carrying my needlework in it since unwrapping it!

and this is what I sent to Sandy

and this is how my evening have been the last few nights...

house build progress...

they say all good things take time.....

 and I am kinda inclined to believe

but we are really seeing some progress about now...

 things are happening

 gib is almost all up

and the gibstopper has started upstairs in the loft and bedrooms

the tiler has almost finished the bathrooms
all in all, it is taking shape nicely!

just a quick post...

you know that saying, don't know if I am Arthur or Martha, that about sums me up at the mo'. 3 times this week I have found my camera only to lose it again, come Sunday, it surely is going to be a day of rest!

(http://suemwebb.blogspot.co.nz/2012/11/frazzled.html)

To say that life has been a little hectic would certainly be an understatement.

(http://fertileramblings.blogspot.co.nz)

 however, after Sunday's day of absolute rest... whilst I will unpack the car from Saturday's fete in Winton, (getting up to drive there tomorrow morning at 4am) and plant shrubs 'n' trees 'n' roses at the new house... which is still under construction... I plan on doing the following over the week ~

(grouponnz.co.nz)

organise and download some books on my new mini i-pad ~ can you believe I have had this now for 3 weeks, and still it is not set up!

(fineartamerica.com)

...pack to head off and see my daughter, and son (newly transported - left last Friday), in Perth, soooo, I'm leaving on a jet plane,

(http://sidfernando.wordpress.com/2009/06/02/ray-writes-stacys-plan-is-to-kneecap-the-competition/jay-jay-the-jet-plane-down-4/)

unfortunately I do know when I will be back again... in 2 weeks,

(grouponnz.co.nz)

plan on doing a bit of this, actually quite a bit if I can..

(http://pepamut.wordpress.com/tag/verb-tenses/)

and a bit of this...

(http://www.culture24.org.uk)

some of this,

organising some of this to take with me, (it is a very long flight to Perth from Timaru and involves several flights and stops, thankfully in Koru lounges with some degree of comfort...made bearable with some hand-stitching to while away the time),

(http://www.picgifs.com/clip-art/gardening/21902/clip-art-gardening-210236/)

followed by...

prepare a few meals for Rowing Man to consume whilst I am away.. (I had done this but recently discovered that my freezer had inadvertently been turned OFF since Labour Weekend - talk about stench, it all ended up in a local farmers offal pit)

play in  the quilt shop, and do a few quilts for customers...

(gutenberg.org)

oh dear, I am starting to feel a bit frazzled allover again!

have a good week!... weekend

p.s. at the local wearable art dinner/auction this evening so more on that later...